Unpredictable Emotions

The unpredictable timing and odd combinations of emotions that hit you during grief can leave you confused and despairing. “My life was totally flipped upside down emotionally, in every way you could think of,” says Sue, whose husband died. Your emotions not only hit hard, but they can also occur at unexpected moments, which makesContinue reading “Unpredictable Emotions”


I came across this boy sitting on the side of a country road one morning. He could have only been like 12 years old. I thought maybe he was lost or hurt. He was crying, and sitting next to him was an empty bottle of black velvet. I pulled over and got out. I walkedContinue reading “THE INTERVIEW WITH ME”


JUNE 11TH – FOOD FOR THOUGHT “Pay attention to how others treat you; secretly, their intentions may be to hurt you because they are not you.” -Joshua Bridges You have not lived today successfully unless you’ve done something for someone who can never repay you. -John Bunyan Some men have thousands of reasons why theyContinue reading “JUNE 11TH – FOOD FOR THOUGHT”


If you could only see the way I could love you, time would stop. The rivers would overflow, the sun would never stop shining, and tears of happiness would only exist. You could never break my heart because you would have been the one that mended it. In the storms of my insanity, you willContinue reading “A LETTER TO MY SOULMATE”

June 10th – food for thought

“Just because I’m broken, doesn’t mean I’m worthless, I just been through hell and back and somehow still alive.”-Joshua Bridges The harder you work, the harder it is to surrender.-Vince Lombardi The moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision,Continue reading “June 10th – food for thought”


As I sit here and reflect on my sobriety and I have relapsed yet again. It’s so hard, the guilt, of being around people who are sober and knowing I could at any moment be a part of taking their sobriety away. It feels like, at this point, I have no one to turn to.Continue reading “TEARS IN A BOTTLE”


The quiet girl that used to have everything to say has said her last words today. Shallow girl, hallowed from the inside out, as she runs away just so she doesn’t hurt another soul again today. Her smiles trapped and washed away in the rain; her laughter flooded like puddles, slowly evaporating into thin air,Continue reading “THE GIRL FROM NOWHERE…….”

He Will Carry You

The Lord will carry you if you ask Him. When you are feeling so weak you cannot take another step, ask Him to lift you high into His loving arms. Then rest in Him with an open and listening heart. This does not mean your problems will disappear, but it does mean you will haveContinue reading “He Will Carry You”


I put myself in many triggering situations that most people would find to be very difficult for me. This is true, but I do it intending to save someone else. Plus, I never pass judgment. Just because I stopped drinking doesn’t mean the rest of the world has to. My illness is my illness. IContinue reading “HOW I DEAL WITH TRIGGERING SITUATIONS”


Depression fueled by the negative thinking of self, the constant thought that I’m not good enough, that ill never be good enough for anyone. I love so hard, but I can’t love myself. Why? Why do I hate myself so much? Why do I fight a compliment? Why am I blinded by this sadness thatContinue reading “LOVE – MY SILENT KILLER”


Doing the right thing is hard till you start doing the right thing without thinking about it; that shit hits different.-Joshua Bridges It is easy in the world to live after the world’s opinions; it is easy in solitude to live after your own, but the great man is he who in the midst ofContinue reading “JUNE 8TH – FOOD FOR THOUGHT”


Suppose, in taking a break from my whirling thoughts, I settle down quietly to think about the word “courtesy.” It means far more than mere politeness; you can be polite without an iota of personal love, warm concern for the other person’s comfort, peace of mind, and well-being. Even giving directions to a confused strangerContinue reading “ONE DAY AT A TIME IN AL-ANON JUNE 7TH”

 Grief Lasts Longer Than Expected

Grief’s unexpected turns will throw you again and again. You may feel that for every step forward, you take at least one step back. The grieving process generally takes longer than you ever imagined. Please don’t rush this process. Remember, what you are feeling is not only normal; it is necessary. “It’s been seven years,Continue reading ” Grief Lasts Longer Than Expected”